from leading to led

I begin by revealing how radically I've been changed by my interactions with the 2 most important people in my life...my husband Brandon and my daughter Dove. They've carried tiny chisels and refined me into something much closer to a masterpiece than I ever could've achieved on my own. Dove's influence has led me to very pleasant obsessions with Project Runway, Sex and the City, and my latest fave, 30 Rock. And Brandon has encumbered me with the greatness of Jimi Hendrix, several Tao/Samurai books and movies, the Black Crowes (aka Sweet Crush Chris Robinson and the other guys), and a long-awaited reclamation of my right to what once was robbed me, the right to serious Led Zeppelin consumption. Artistic examples aside, my existence is infinitely better the more I cease resistance, and allow these 2 loved ones (and it's really 3 counting my best friend Karen) guide me and inform my choices. I remember nights when Dove was little when the two of us got home from work and I wisely just plopped down, looked at her adorable face and said, "Now what? You tell me!" whereby we proceeded to have the greatest of DIY evenings ruled by the navigating skills of my tiny teacher.

I think life is so chaotic that we're fools to try and control it as much as we do. We resort, when left to our own lethargic devices, to the same paths, the same smells, the same straws in the same cups of the same stimulation. At my age and stage, I truly am discovering the pleasure of finally shifting from leading to led.